Upanishads

The Sanskrit term Upaniṣad derives from upa- (nearby), ni- (at the proper place, down) and ṣad (to sit) thus: "sitting down near"), implying sitting near a teacher to receive instruction or, alternatively, "sitting at the foot of … (teacher)", or "laying siege" to the teacher. (Source: Wikipedia)

Well. There’s no going on around it. I feel useless. Ako ay isang palamunin. For a Type A person, this is not acceptable.

Don’t get me wrong here. I AM NOT BEING LAZY. I’ve been raised in a family that values work. “If you don’t work, you don’t eat.” I can get a job and I believe that with my qualifications, I can. It’s not pride either. I don’t mind waiting tables, scrubbing pots and pans, even cleaning toilets. I‘m not an arrogant worker and I, in fact, like doing these things.

But there’s more to this than, well, THIS! I’m waiting on the Lord. Skeptics, you can lower your eyebrows now. I’ve been praying to God to lead me where He really wants me. I simply refuse to take another step unless there’s a clear direction from my God.

This is frustrating for someone who used to be concerned with what others think of him. But frustrated or not, I choose to wait. I know that God is building my character and crushing my pride. Guess what? I’m actually fine with it. (I just hope my father and my sisters are fine with it also. They assured me that they’re fine with it for the meantime. Hope they really are.)

I believe that God will answer soon. I will not be like Abraham who had Ishmael from an Egyptian slave because he did not wait for the fulfillment of God’s promise. If he just waited, his descendants would not have been slaved by the Egyptians themselves and the descendants of Ishmael and Isaac would not have had this enmity between them which is still present until today.

I choose to be like Joseph, faithful with what he has been entrusted in the present; in slavery, even in prison. I know that in God’s perfect timing, I will face my pharaoh and only then will I be able to look back and realize that my God has prepared me well.

I will sit at the feet of my Master and I will choose to learn. I will let Jesus fill me up to the brim with water (Jesus’ first miracle at the wedding in Cana). Only then will the guests realize that truly, the best wine is served last.

“[B] ut they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall run mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31). “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” (Psalm 27: 14. Thank you Ye!). “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. xxx” (2 Peter 3:9)

Ryan, be still and know that He is God! (Psalm 46:10). ‘Di ba nga? For in His perfect timing, up ahead a light is shining and I know that dawn will be arriving…very soon.

(few months ago ni)